UntiTLeD >.<

Have I lost my rationality?

Sometimes, we're left all alone to make decisions. The more we escape from it, the more we have to face troubles =( Forgive me again if you've no idea about what I'm talking about. Never mind, leave me alone. I enjoy talking to the wall =p

Humans are always too complicated to predict their behaviors, including me. Some are emotionally explosive, some are as calm as the sea, some are blatantly cold blooded, you name it. No wonder others are keen on psychology and other human behavioral studies and stuffs like that. Why do people end up being psychologically ill? interesting~ Ever felt that you feel lonely, but in fact..you're not alone and having lovable people around you? I seriously HATE that kind of feeling =(

When we're born..we come alone(that's if we don't have twins; even if we do have a twin brother or sister mingling with us in our mother's womb, it doesn't mean that the baby is not lonely )
Then..we ought to be sent to kindergarten.. =( alone again
Years passed by, we enter into primary and secondary schools and Universities or colleges etc etc and we're still facing it alone.
And when we rest in peace, we do it alone too. We get into that BOX alone, don't we????..muahaha
Mind you, you may say that hey..ur wrong. Don't you know that other individuals are having the same life as yours? 'Ur not alone' says the late Micheal Jackson

Refer back to the point where I've started. Don't you feel that during exams..you're always left alone. No one could study FOR YOU. It must me YOU and ONLY YOU to hammer facts and supplement your knowledge sufficiently and then.. ONLY YOU can get your answer sheet filled with scribbles and craps after that.
It's you alone who would be interviewed alone and get the job you want in the future.. ( but it won't be you alone who spend or determine how you spend your money, blekk? I can help u =D I will always be with YOU XD )
And in making decisions, wheN no one could make it for you...u're still alone

Humans are weak spiritually. I guess the only way out is to have faith in God as it could really put your loneliness to one side. No wonder people are always in hunger of going to church and do their devotions frequently..and read the words of God just to feel closer to Him. Perhaps, that's the only ailment in this world that I could think of right now

Mentioning about decisions to be made..I always take the easy way out in life and I've revealed that fact of me before. Nevertheless, every short cut we take could cost more than we've expected. ' No short cut' ~ says WHERE GOT GHOST.
Hahaha; I would always think that..if you don't know what to choose from, then don't choose. But this ain't true and doesn't apply to everything as we mature. This was probably why I would always leave my options opened but in the disadvantage of the others. That's the selfish part of me..wondering why did I say so?? Here's a simple example of how I keep my options wide opened..and take time considering of each and every single pieces of benefits and costs that I have to bear b4 deciding on something.

Friend: hey, ky.. so and so??
Kimyen: ooo...depends... =)
Friend: y u always say depends wan arrr =(

LOL!!
We ought to decide on things and not to look back, or sulk at how bad the decisions we have made, which answers whY I always take a long time to make decisions; I'm extentively afraid to make the wrong choice >.< Seriously, that's simply the TRUEST fact of me that I can confess about the so-the-very-ME//