Monday, January 18, 2016

A start of a new year

By fate, or coincidence. I stumbled upon my own blog and to mysurprise, it's been more than a year since I'd updated anything here. 

It's 11.22pm, 18/12/2016.

I'm here reporting in as a working lady, (not disclosing my age heheheh), been working for close to 4 years after passing the ACCA. And, well, I'm honestly proud of myself for constantly updating my blog during the past few years especially during college time. I suppose,entertainment ?or stress reliever?  :)

Guess I'd decided to keep this open diary open for as long as I could, so one day, I could stumble upon this again after some time.

 ~~ Are you happy with my thoughts bloggie? My life has been constantly the same except that I'd changed to a fine job, with lovely people around me, with blessed relationships. So, what more could I ask for. Somehow, during this phase of life, I start to worry how long could I feel blessed, as all flowers would wither. Everything will age and nothing lasts forever. But then again, I constantly try to wipe that thoughts off from my mind and say, 'hey, if you start to worry about everyday, you are not living ur life at present. and what's the point of worrying anyway?'

Well, humans. We are fragile beings.

 I do recall one of my eventful trip with both my parents to Bangkok.. And there was I, sitting with another lady in the flight. It was the first time I'd to go through such helplessness feeling
that I'd just constantly thought of God, and kept on praying and realised that life is very fragile. During a near-death situation, what I could think of was God to be with me, to save me. and if the plane did crash, I hoped that it wasn't as painful.

The intermittent turbulence was very abnormal, compared to what we'd experienced in normal flights. And then, when the plane was about to land, it went down so abruptly as though I was falling off from the sky, (our hips were literally not on the seats, and we're merely secured by seatbelts). The whole thirty minutes was scary, as the same cycle went on for several times.

 And then, another turbulence, and the 'falling off from seats moment', that the lady beside me was actually bursting out into tears. The passengers looked panicked. Some just closed their eyes. Kids were crying.

The lady beside me looked at my face and  cried,"I'm scared!". Acting calm, but praying to God in my heart, Icalmed her down and replied,"Don't be scared, everything will be alright." and I held her hands. During the whole scene, this stranger was holding on to my hands tightly. (I'm sure that it was a sincere gesture to a stranger, not an attempt to look macho, anyway I don't need to cuz im a girl~)

So at last. It did not crash. Eventhough it felt like it would.

It was then
when I realised that whatever we are pursuing as living beings, these are all material things, and what was important was LOVE. Love among people, soulmates, family, friends.. these are the utmost important element in life, which we often take for granted, or neglect as we pursue our materialistic wants~

Cherish our loved ones, live life at present and stop worrying. Without me realising, I'd just drafted a ... NEW YEAR RESOLUTION. "pats myself" ^-^

And I do hope that whoever who happens to stop by and read this, would do the same.

happy 2016~


(during bad weather.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Back alive

It seems to be a while since this blog comes alive again. Hi.

I pray that I shall get a better job soon. I feel.. I am loaded with memories which had happened throughout my absence here, too much for me to  write type with words which are always a limitation for me to express things fully.

Well it has already been 1.8years since the very beginning of my career path, which  resembled the scene of  a  'road diverged into two'. I had taken the road that was less taken which was indeed a riskier choice, contradicting what I really wanted to enjoy and my priorities in life.. but then it was full of new experiences which was still worthwhile.

And next..I took a route which I thought was safer. But  it was a hellish moment I shall say. But God was still with me. Looking at the brighter side, I went France.. It marked the first time I travelled alone by the taxi to Pau, transferred my flight to Paris, and then to Amsterdam back to Kuala Lumpur. It marked my very first time to be in the suite alone as well.

It wasn't as great working and  at the same time having the opportunity to experience the culture at the same time, while worrying of the next worst things that could happen to my self driven portfolio. But then again, there were still some moments I'd enjoyed really much. The peacefulness of Pau Pyrenees, the wine-drinking lessons I had, the coldness, the painted glasses of the churches, where the colours were so beautiful when the light shines through them, the scene of the hill covered with ice, and the opportunity I had travelling with my mom and also exploring new cities with a few friends, and the loneliness that I felt too.

I was well-fed anyhow :) with salmon, cod fish, wine, desserts, basically anything I felt like eating, . I could just get them like a queen despite being so stressed-up. It felt like a luxury to have fine-dine everyday.. yet I felt so trapped at the same time, despite my gastronomy needs being taken care of.

Ahh, it feels so good that I am here now, and not there. And it feels good  typing to keep the memories here as much as I can to remind me how I was like, my thoughts.. and the things I had gone through in the past few years.

I hope blogspot still exists by then. haha

So this is it. Several paragraphs packed with memories to the owner of this blog, and I hope this is also entertaining for my readers.

~the end~

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Hi. ah, as awkward and weird as always for a start. It's been forever since i have started blogging again. Not much of quality leisure time to blog, as most of the time I use for weekends were still studying/working/going out/ simply doing nothing. So. Sorry bloggie I know you miss me much. Finally, a student became an OL; and there isn't much to rant ( cuz there's not much time for me to rant) Days pass even FASTER everyday. Weekends were insuffient. Practically a robotic life with some essence in it ( where we getta learn new stuffs and experience da all in black- so professional like and networking-like experiences). And one thing i could testament, the harder we work, the more we wish to compensate ourselves I feel. Last time, was no coffee. den Old town was adequate. Next was Starbucks and den San Frans. Erk. Coffee addict. Coffeeee~~~ tastes great ( hehehe, so random) Anyways, back to my boring story, feeling more and more things i should worry about. My future financials. My family. My career path. My happiness. My life. My children. My youth. My parents. Life is so temporary. Everything seems temporary. Tata.

Sunday, July 31, 2011


yes..that's one of my favourite fruits besides the sourish green apples. The pretty red fruit with a sweet scent, i love strawberry scented products, strawberries for shampoo..body wash..lotions..haha. sounds girly.
anyways, I love them. and I love to eat em ^^

Life here is lonely sometimes. Absence makes our heart fonder, wondering how September month is gonna be without the Internet and increase in phone charges..
There, late at night around 9 plus when I was walking down the streets to do some late night shopping. Strangers passed by..the blacks..teenagers walking..girls smoking..
children still cycling during the dusK
Although it was dark, I had that sense of security within me. Probably because, I wasn't at the place I was born in, where night means you shouldn't walk alone at all
even if you are a middle aged woman. The cool breeze brushed on my face ,calm..peaceful..It made me wonder if I was actually in a novel. Journeys to school in the morning alone gave me another feeling. The atmosphere would be a lil more perky than a dull solitary feel of calmness. The fresh air, makes me inhale deep , which I wouldn't want to do that anywhere back near places where the cars will pass by intermittently.

The streets, I love how the pretty flowers complement and cheer up the little houses near the streets..Life just need to be that simple sometimes. I felt, even if i was living in a small house like that with my love one.. it would be more than perfect for a life. simplicity is sometimes, the best afterall.

Recalling back, I enjoyed some simple day trips..which was peaceful. Felt blessed God had given me such a life, where I could experience such, being blessed and loved.
I miss my home badly (don't read this)

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Sitting down on the the peak where i could watch the blue ocean from above.It was exactly like how I'd wished it would be, it felt just like a dream come true. when once upon a time, I was thinking to escape from where I was to be in a place which is calm..enjoying the surroundings with a peaceful mind. Something was missing though..I wish he was there/

That moment, I felt like taking a pen and my diary, to capture what I'd felt. silly me, i didn't bring any of those out from where i'm staying.

The scenery was too beautiful to be captured by mere man made lensses.. each moment,the sound of the ocean, the sound of the wind..was truly a perfect creation.

loving couples enjoying the scenery

Me and my bestie were walking on our own. finding our own paths and ways, wondering along the streets when others were near the tourists spot..taking pictures. One thing i could not bear was noises and the busy places where you have to bang on people accidentally just to make your way through. So we decided to choose our own paths.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011


It's 5.24 am and it feels somber...

It sounds a bit exaggerating and unfair for people who leaves longer to say something like that.i'm not. Anyways, God bless.

I was also packing things into boxes at the same time..taped them with maskings and yeah, finally. my room is gonna get some reconstruction because the tiles cracked due to extreme heat and poor construction and hurt my leg and caused me to paint the tiles with some blood one fine day. The heat is unbearable for any humankind to live in it and i had headaches because of them. Feeling the heat around even with the aircond and thinking if the aircond isn't working~~ that was how it was like for..around 9 years? >.< It isn't too brilliant for the workers to have made the rooftop using..purely cement binder instead of a real roof. this will finally come to an end. I hope =)

lau lau looks sad too..


Wednesday, May 11, 2011


I asked God for water,
He gave me an ocean.

I asked God for a flower,
He gave me a garden.

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.

Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.

Every moment, thank God =)

Rules from God

1. Wake Up !! Decide to have a good day.
"Today is the day the Lord hath made; let us rejoice and be glad in it" Psalms 118:24

2. Dress Up !! The best way to dress up is to put on a smile. A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks. "The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at outward appearance; but the Lord looks at the heart."
I Samuel 16:7

3 Shut Up!! Say nice things and learn to listen. God gave us two ears and one mouth, so He must have meant for us to do twice as much listening as talking. "He who guards his lips guards his soul." Proverbs 13:3

4. Stand Up!!... For what you believe in. Stand for something or you will fall for anything.. "Let us not be weary in doing good; for at the proper time, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good..." Galatians 6:9-10

5. Look Up !!... To the Lord.
"I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me."
Philippians 4:13

6. Reach Up !!... For something higher. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, And He will direct your path."
Proverbs 3:5-6

7. Lift Up !!... Your Prayers.
"Do not worry about anything;
Philippians 4:6

That's how words from God bring peace =)