UntiTLeD >.<

Have I lost my rationality?

Sometimes, we're left all alone to make decisions. The more we escape from it, the more we have to face troubles =( Forgive me again if you've no idea about what I'm talking about. Never mind, leave me alone. I enjoy talking to the wall =p

Humans are always too complicated to predict their behaviors, including me. Some are emotionally explosive, some are as calm as the sea, some are blatantly cold blooded, you name it. No wonder others are keen on psychology and other human behavioral studies and stuffs like that. Why do people end up being psychologically ill? interesting~ Ever felt that you feel lonely, but in fact..you're not alone and having lovable people around you? I seriously HATE that kind of feeling =(

When we're born..we come alone(that's if we don't have twins; even if we do have a twin brother or sister mingling with us in our mother's womb, it doesn't mean that the baby is not lonely )
Then..we ought to be sent to kindergarten.. =( alone again
Years passed by, we enter into primary and secondary schools and Universities or colleges etc etc and we're still facing it alone.
And when we rest in peace, we do it alone too. We get into that BOX alone, don't we????..muahaha
Mind you, you may say that hey..ur wrong. Don't you know that other individuals are having the same life as yours? 'Ur not alone' says the late Micheal Jackson

Refer back to the point where I've started. Don't you feel that during exams..you're always left alone. No one could study FOR YOU. It must me YOU and ONLY YOU to hammer facts and supplement your knowledge sufficiently and then.. ONLY YOU can get your answer sheet filled with scribbles and craps after that.
It's you alone who would be interviewed alone and get the job you want in the future.. ( but it won't be you alone who spend or determine how you spend your money, blekk? I can help u =D I will always be with YOU XD )
And in making decisions, wheN no one could make it for you...u're still alone

Humans are weak spiritually. I guess the only way out is to have faith in God as it could really put your loneliness to one side. No wonder people are always in hunger of going to church and do their devotions frequently..and read the words of God just to feel closer to Him. Perhaps, that's the only ailment in this world that I could think of right now

Mentioning about decisions to be made..I always take the easy way out in life and I've revealed that fact of me before. Nevertheless, every short cut we take could cost more than we've expected. ' No short cut' ~ says WHERE GOT GHOST.
Hahaha; I would always think that..if you don't know what to choose from, then don't choose. But this ain't true and doesn't apply to everything as we mature. This was probably why I would always leave my options opened but in the disadvantage of the others. That's the selfish part of me..wondering why did I say so?? Here's a simple example of how I keep my options wide opened..and take time considering of each and every single pieces of benefits and costs that I have to bear b4 deciding on something.

Friend: hey, ky.. so and so??
Kimyen: ooo...depends... =)
Friend: y u always say depends wan arrr =(

LOL!!
We ought to decide on things and not to look back, or sulk at how bad the decisions we have made, which answers whY I always take a long time to make decisions; I'm extentively afraid to make the wrong choice >.< Seriously, that's simply the TRUEST fact of me that I can confess about the so-the-very-ME//

randomess

well, if you still remember dat pinky promise~ here..this is a significant 1 ---my
new wallpaper----- notice the changes?? U should, I've spent lotsa hours looking for the right 1 and there're more to come ;p



I'd intentionally adjusted the hues and colors just to make dis pic look pinK just to emphasize on this promise..XD jk The color is kinda soothing to d eyes, which is why I've choseN it, I love white more dan pink, purple,blue and black=) and since itz more deN a week or two since i step my feet into dis site again..it means that I've more stories to tell =)

few weeks ago...



urm, you must be wondering..since wheN this gaL has learNt sucH an instrument besides orgaN and pianO?? ehem, guitar??? *chuckles* lolz. Thanks to my dear friend wHo gave me a ride 2 d churcH near gK that daY, it was fuN. d 1 daY guitar class in d studiO really made my daY (although I managed to learn 3 chords only..hahaha)

well, as for violin...I've managed to learN quite a number of keys during d first lessOn, n d sounds produced were pathetically hurting to my own ears >.<'' and my shoulders were aching a couple of days after dat( worser effect than playing ping pong or badminton) But then..decided that I should take uP classes during d holidays to fully concentrate on learning violin in a nearer centre..although it alsO means that I have to forgO my chances of playing in the orchestra4 skul =(

To me, playing for an orchestra sounds elite and totally unreachable due to my laziness in practicing and lacK of qualification...but our college has made it almost possible for such wonderfUL things apart of the affordable fees and ' dragging-students-to-hell-sort-of-syllabus-situation' muahahaha=D cant blame theM for d latter part..i assume all colleges and U's are almost d same, datz a part of life..and I always seem to opt for the easier waY out in life...

And a few days bacK,a 'havoC' happened..(I supposed..some more than interesting things happened after some moments of staring at the lecture notes)
I've eveN created a storY line out of it...

Once upoN a time,sailor venus and ginnY were best friends....


One fine daY, theY received a preciOus gift froM heaven....


Due to greEd and power...theY fought for the precious Faber Castle highlighter Xo ?!
and their supportive clans came tO help..
MashimarO was stabbed usiNg a pair of...scissors..panda was killed bY hipopo..and teddY was DEaD due to a suddeN heaRT attacK. GinnY was killeD using a magiC wand....



At last!!!!



sailor Venus woNNN!!!!
Datz a lil.....retarded, yea...i havtO admit it.hehe This is part of d crazy things i would do weN i get reallY reallY , exTremelY, acutely, drastically BoreD.

Hours ago.....





just managed to take 2 pictures of my fren's drinks and side dishes..d rest were eateN b4 d pics were takeN i guess
We dined in a restaurant called...cone pIzza=) and celebrated py's bdaY with a couple of friends..hahaha. D candlE scene was hillArious!!!It's kindA impossibLe to 4get someone's reactions when the candLE lighT couldnt be blowN ofF!
And gee jie successfully bleW it witH his saliva landing on d cake to complement the cake's yumminess! LOL

Guess I have to stoP here, having a headache and caught a cold =(
till then, sayonarA..

I'll be back;)

Not to Forget...HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST PUI YEEEE!!!..hahaha
may God blesS u n ur familY =)